Okay, if you're a person with a wicked cynical streak like me, you're probably thinking "Why the hell should I care about another 'mommy blog' who thinks she has something profound to share with the world?"

I mean, that's EXACTLY what I would be thinking...and yet here I am, writing one. So sue me. Here's my take, though, and bear with me.

Here's a description of what/who I live with on a daily basis, and you tell me if this isn't fertile ground for dysfunctional hilarity! It's also cheaper than therapy and less toxic than drugs/alcohol in copious amounts, so here goes:

I am a 42 year old mom of 4 kids, ages 22, 20, 15 and 8.  Their dad (my husband, yes- he fathered all 4) has worked in the Middle East for the better part of 6 years, and it doesn't seem to be letting up. As if this situation was more than enough to put stress on me, I came up with the idea of doing something I never thought I would be able to do- go back to school and earn a degree. And not just any degree, but a Bachelor of Music in vocal performance.

Yes, I'm serious.

See- that last part is pretty important, because being a person who has been singing her whole life, in community theater productions, choirs, and in my church, I thought I had an idea of what pursuing a BM (and as of January, a MM)  really meant. Boy, was I wrong!

It meant that on top of the usual music theory, music history, and general ed classes, I was expected to sing in multiple choirs, take lessons with a well respected, yet batshit crazy teacher, and sing in school productions. All the while, being a "single mom" and keeping together the kids' school schedules,  activities, and everything that goes with it. If that wasn't enough, I decided to earn some cash by becoming a voice teacher, choir director, and musical director for some local shows.

Yes, I'm crazy.

I find myself feeling a bit like Sybil on any given day, with a toe in three different worlds....one as a student (with kids who are half my age and more), one as a mom, and one as a performer/director.

Now you're probably thinking "Oh, great, another one of those moms who over schedules her life and her kids' lives, playing the martyr on how busy she is but the sacrifices are sooo worth it", blah blah, blah...

Not me. I happen to think that I screw things up on a somewhat regular basis.  I wonder sometimes if all this is, actually, worth it. Sometimes, the answer is "No."

But I DO think my life gives me unique opportunities for people watching, and the usual running commentary that exists in my head as a result of the lunacy which is my life is better served written down. Again, it's cheaper than therapy, people. I've got a family to support!

So read, comment, and hopefully laugh a lot. Really-for me, this is about finding people who think twisted thoughts like me and aren't afraid to share them!

I curse a lot. I'm pretty irreverent. I'm usually the loudest girl in the room. So if you are looking for an inspirational blog...this ain't it, so make a u-turn, do not pass go, and do not collect $100, and thank you for leaving.